O Lord .
You know where i've been , every deepest pit ;
every flickering fleeting hope. You know because You were there ,
with me , for me .
You know my pain even more deeply than i do. You are the giver of my joys .
You forgive my selfishness and self pity .
You stoop down to meet me in my blind and brokenness . You sit with me 'til day break and then still , always will remain .
in the pits of hell , body clutched , eyes locked shut as a steal trap door ,
You remain . You never never took , and never will take , Your Presence from me .
When i refuse You , You are still there .
When everyone else leaves me , You stay .
stronger than any attempts to kill me , You sustain me . my very breathe .
my very beating heart .
my ability to see You or feel you does not change You .
it does not shake You .
You are the healer , and even more , You are the resurrector .
slowly , as understanding slips into the peripheral realm of my senses , i cling to the Promise ; to You , that one day and one day soon I will You fully and clearly .
past . present . future .
questions answered .
doubts irrelevant .
angels singing and demons destroyed .
I am Yours , and You are mine .
Jesus , hold me . carry me out of the shadows away from the grip of death and into Your Glorious Light and Life .
grip my wavering heart in Your unshakeable Grace .
You . my immovable fortress.
my lifeline .
my only Hope and desperate plea ,
not for what You do but only for who You are .
a pure love for You made possible in Your pure love for me .
teach me .
lead me .
love me .
You , oh faithful , ever-present God ,
let me find You in hidden places .
help me believe You are in the things unseen .
honesty unlocks doors . we cannot get to the place that we are going if we do not [ cannot ] acknowledge and engage the place that we are in .
